"if you wind up with a boring, miserable life because you listened to your mom, your dad, your teacher, your priest, or some guy on tv telling you how to do your shit, then you deserve it" - FRANK ZAPPA
“The repressed memory is like a noisy intruder being thrown out of the concert hall. You can throw him out, but he will bang on the door and continue to disturb the concert. The analyst opens the door and says, ‘If you promise to behave yourself, you can come back in.”— Theodor Reik (via spermdump)
I realized that its hard for me to have feelings for someone. The only thing close is just a strong physical attraction that I have. It just feels like this little monster that I have to feed so it’ll let me be. Otherwise if I don’t, I think that I have strong feelings for that someone when its only desire. When I tell someone I like them, I really do mean it. Its actually hard for me to do that. Sometimes I just wonder that feelings are never enough for the other person. I just needed to get this out somehow.
I’m eating Green Tea ice cream for the first time. Every time I look down I first think that it is a giant bowl of wasabi. Overall its like eating solidified tea. Its not gross or anything but I’m not crazy about it either.